Should I Be The Product The Toxic Environment of The World Made Me?

 Should I Be The Product The Toxic Environment of The
World Made Me?
October 20, 2023
In general response. As to the hostility of anonymous posters online, towards those rare and
few individuals who would, supposedly choose to be so-called homeless, though through no
legitimate choice of their own, they have been marginalized by technological civilization and
society, as to be a vagabond, a traveler, or whatever, with no fixed location of residence or
social economic status, such haters and naysayers express a bitterness and lack of empathy
that has little to do with having or not having a job, money, and one's own apartment. Shame
on you.
How dare you judge and criticize people who, for whatever reasons, cannot, or will not, work
and earn money in the Draconian tyranny of technological civilization. Perhaps for some, in
order to maintain, or even to reclaim, their sanity, or a semblance of mental health, or spiritual
vitality, they have had to separate themselves from a psychotic and abusive relationship or
otherwise predatory and hostile situation, they have had to make some of the hardest choices,
and have had to endure suffering. But if they are worth their weight in humanity, they will not
curse the housed and Rich for the sake of feeding the fire of their own blind rage. Incidentally,
not everyone that owns, or lives in, a house has a home. If you are not nuanced enough to
know that human beings are unique and each one of us has our own journey, and trials and
tribulations to endure, and joys and blessings to experience, then I would question your
motives, and perhaps if you have lost the ability to understand and conduct yourself as a
human being. Perhaps you are the very guilty one you feign to attack and be averse to. Such
projection and inverted and reverse Psychopathology is mainstream in the dominant culture of
cybernetic technological civilization after all, and is made all the more easier by Anonymous
posters on the internet.
You insult the intelligence of individuals, with your collective stupidity, and you arrogantly
project motives onto, and meetings into, individuals that you do not even know anything about,
because you supposedly find yourself in a situation and circumstances that are extremely
dangerous and difficult for you.

Are there things we should not be willing to do, even if that means the possibility that we will
not have money, and thus be at far greater risk of suffering hardship, and have far fewer
choices and amenities available to us? I would declare the answer to that moral question to be,
for some of us, a resounding yes! You imply that all human beings should do anything and
everything to not be, so-called homeless, no matter what. And then you diagnose the sanity of
those who draw a line, and decide for themselves, personal freedom is not contingent upon
them having a job and working, and being a productive member of society so -called. Will you
define what their reality should be and consist of as well? You consider yourself better than
them, you are an elite compared to them, because you did not choose your current situation
and circumstances? What makes you so sure that they chose, or will choose, the circumstance
which have brought them, or will bring them, to be at the bottom of the cast system and soioal
economic political stratification of civilized society? What makes us so sure you did not
choose your situation?
Are human beings like so many Factory produced products, all Universal in our needs and
interests, all so many cogs that can be integrated and assimilated into the machine Matrix
including perhaps our need to be a slave to a job we hate, surrounded by people we dislike, and
who dislike us, and living in an apartment complex where there is no sense of community
whatsoever, and our so called Neighbors are as different from us as a turtle is from a bird, and
a life that is soul crushing and not at all fulfilling? All without friends and family, all without a
social group or life for Prospect of a hopeful and free future?
Maybe every day for you without a roof over your head, or a bunch of money to pour into bills
and consumer products is not an adventure, that can be sometimes joyous, but for at least
some individuals out there, I would Hazard a guess that, for at least some every day without a
nine-to-five, every day without being beholden to the boss and the landlord, is an adventure,
and they either create, or are presented with sufficient enough opportunity, to find joy, peace,
and meaning in their life. And guess what? They do not need your approval or validation.
In the span of 3 months I was: held up at gunpoint and robbed by three thugs, at 7:30 at night
while it was still daylight, and these criminals leaped out of a sports utility vehicle that I would
never be able to afford, not that I would ever be interested in that sort of vehicle, and had
everything stolen from me, including the $500 electric bike I bought and was using to
commute to and from work, my debit card, phone, driver's license, and apartment key; I was hit
by a car, which I would not have been had the driver not sped up, the driver only stopped long
enough to survey the damage they caused, and as a result I had to miss a day of work and heal
on my own, because I cannot afford health insurance, going to the ER or urgent care and
putting myself in such medical debt; I had my life threatened by two criminal thugs while
walking home from work; I had a motorized scooter stolen from me that cost me $2,000, 3
weeks after I bought it, and the insurance gave me less than $300; I was betrayed and falsely
accused by a community of professed Christians; and all this happened while I was working

full-time and religiously paying my bills. My point is, one need not be without a job or a roof
over their head, to have bad things happen to them.
But homelessness? So called? Yeah, I have been there and done that, for three and a half
years. I know what it's like waking up freezing in a car in the middle of a winter night. I know
what it's like sleeping on a steam vent on the streets of New York city. I know how horrible the
shelter system is in New York city, and how it is really better, and safer, outside of it. I know
what it's like going to a soup kitchen on thanksgiving, being surrounded by complete strangers
on the holidays, and having no family or friends to call or talk with. I know what it's like to wake
up, at night, on a bench in a public park, and see the breaded pastries someone had stealthily
left while I was sleeping. I would not exactly consider such a creepy thing a charitable Act of
kindness. I know what it's like being woken up in the morning by a police officer telling me that
I couldn't sleep in the public park that I just slept in the entire night prior. I know what it's like
having the police called on me while sitting at a bench outside of a public library during
operation hours, reading a book that I legitimately checked out from the library, that was not
overdue, using my own Library card. And I know other things, but I've already made the point.
And I have no interest in screaming at a dead horse to get back up.
I would much rather live free for a day, than be a slave for 20 years in a life that the world
falsely claims is mine, all the while the world burns the only bridge I have to my own, personal,
unique spiritual individuality. Instead of blaming other people who are not hurting and harming
other people, who the entire world hates, and projecting on to them, your misplaced rage, try
looking at how evil, and cruel the system is, that you seem to covet so desperately and portray
in such glowing terms. Sell your soul to have a shower everyday all you want. But that will
never not convince some individuals, albeit an increasing minority of a minority, that the price
of civilization is, at some point, not worth giving up their integrity for. Ask yourself, what could
be so wrong about and with the Civilized world, that at some point, some individuals are no
longer willing to go along with it, no matter the struggle nor the hardship?
No matter the struggle, sometimes a true adventure means not selling out for an engineered
reality that has little next to nothing to do with the Soulful purpose of human life, more than it
has to do with the exploitation of human labor and the greed of the world that is all
transforming. You make the presumption that people who supposedly choose to be so-called
homeless romanticize the notion of what it is to be without money, a daily shower, running
water, electricity, a place of our own, or even having a legitimate place to belong in the civilized
world. And that they all have the means to go back to whence they came, to they're so-called
normal life, once they tire of the experience, and it gets too difficult. Insofar as those people
exist they are not even worth mentioning. Who I am talking about, are those indomitable Souls
who are resilient enough to survive, or at least to ambition towards survival, even when it's only
the damnation of the entire world they hear that speaks to them. Instead of being part of that
damnation, why not try and be part of the salvation?